I wasnât sure if I was losing my mind or if something darker was haunting me. When I returned from the cemetery, the flowers I placed on my wifeâs grave were waiting for me in the kitchen vase. Iâd buried my wife and my guilt five years ago, but it felt like the past was clawing its way back to me.
The weight of grief never truly lifts. Itâs been five years since I lost my wife, Winter, but the pain still feels fresh. Our daughter, Eliza, was just 13 when it happened. Now 18, sheâs grown into a young woman who carries her motherâs absence like a silent shadow.
I stared at the calendar, the circled date mocking me. Another year has gone by, and another anniversary was approaching. The pit in my stomach deepened as I called out to Eliza.
âIâm heading to the cemetery, dear.â
Eliza appeared in the doorway, indifference cloaking her eyes. âItâs that time again, isnât it, Dad?â
I nodded, unable to find the words. What could I say? That I was sorry? That I missed her mother too? Instead, I grabbed my keys and headed out, leaving the silence to fill the space between us.
The floristâs shop was a burst of color and fragrance. I approached the counter, my steps heavy.
âThe usual, Mr. Ben?â the florist asked, her smile sympathetic.
âWhite roses. Just like always.â
As she wrapped the bouquet, I couldnât help but remember the first time Iâd bought Winter flowers. It was our third date, and Iâd been so nervous Iâd nearly dropped them.
Sheâd laughed, her eyes sparkling, and said, âBen, youâre adorable when youâre flustered.â
The memory faded as the florist handed me the roses. âHere you go, Mr. Ben. Iâm sure sheâd love them.â
âThanks. I hope so.â
The cemetery was quiet, save for the rustle of leaves in the breeze. I made my way to Winterâs grave, each step feeling heavier than the last.
The black marble headstone came into view, her name etched in gold letters that seemed to shimmer in the weak sunlight.
I knelt and placed the roses carefully against the stone. A pang of grief pierced my chest as my fingers traced the letters of her name.
âI miss you, Winter. God, I miss you so much.â
The wind picked up, sending a chill down my spine. For a moment, I could almost imagine it was her touch, her way of telling me she was still here.
But the cold reality settled in quickly. She was gone, and no amount of wishing would bring her back.
I stood up, brushing dirt from my knees. âIâll be back next year, love. I promise.â
As I walked away, I couldnât shake the feeling that something was different this time. But I pushed the thought aside, chalking it up to the ever-present grief playing tricks on my mind.
The house was quiet when I returned. I headed to the kitchen, desperately in need of a strong cup of coffee.
Thatâs when I saw them.
On the kitchen table, in a crystal vase I didnât recognize, stood the same roses I had just left at Winterâs grave.
My heart began to race, pounding so hard I could hear it in my ears. I stumbled forward, my hands shaking as I reached out to touch the petals. They were real, impossibly real.
âWhat the hell? Eliza!â I called out, my voice echoing through the empty house. âEliza, are you here?â
I turned around, my eyes never leaving the roses. They were exactly the same as the ones Iâd bought, with the same slight imperfections and the same dewdrops clinging to the petals.
It was impossible.
âThis canât be happening,â I whispered, backing away from the table. âThis canât be real.â
I donât know how long I stood there, staring at those impossible roses. The sound of footsteps snapped me out of my trance.
âDad? Whatâs wrong?â
I turned to see Eliza standing on the staircase, her eyes widening as she took in my pale face.
âWhatâs going on, Dad? You look like youâve seen a ghost.â
I pointed at the vase, my hand shaking. âWhere did these roses come from, Eliza? Did you bring these home?â
She shook her head, confusion clear on her face. âNo, Iâve been out with friends. I just got back. Whatâs wrong?â
I took a deep breath, trying to steady my voice. âThese are the exact same roses I left at your motherâs grave. Identical, Eliza. How is that possible?â
Elizaâs face paled, her eyes darting between me and the flowers. âThatâs not possible, Dad. Are you sure?â
âIâm sure. I need to go back to the cemetery. Now.â
The drive back to the cemetery was a blur. My mind raced with possibilities, each more unlikely than the last.
Had someone followed me? Had I imagined leaving the flowers earlier? Was I losing my mind?
Eliza was adamant about coming with me, but the ride was filled with an uncomfortable silence.
As we approached Winterâs grave, my heart sank. The spot where Iâd carefully placed the roses was empty. No flowers and no sign that Iâd been there at all.
âTheyâre gone. How can they be gone?â
Eliza knelt down, running her hand over the bare ground. âDad, are you sure you left them here? Maybe you forgotââ
I shook my head vehemently. âNo, Iâm certain. I placed them right here, just a few hours ago.â
She stood up, her eyes meeting mine.
âLetâs go home, Dad. We need to figure this out.â
Back at the house, the roses still sat on the kitchen table. Eliza and I stood on opposite sides, the flowers between us like a barrier.
âThere has to be an explanation, Dad. Maybe Mom is trying to tell us something.â
I laughed. âYour mother is dead, Eliza. Dead people donât send messages.â
âThen how do you explain this?â she shot back, gesturing at the roses. âBecause Iâm running out of logical explanations.â
I ran a hand through my hair, frustration and fear bubbling inside me. âI donât know, Eliza! I donât know whatâs going on, but itâs not⊠it canât beâŠâ
My voice trailed off as I noticed something tucked under the vase. A small, folded piece of paper I hadnât seen before. With trembling hands, I reached for it.
âWhat is it, Dad?â
I unfolded the note, my heart stopping as I recognized the handwriting. Winterâs handwriting.
âI know the truth, and I forgive you. But itâs time for you to face what youâve hidden.â
The room spun, and I gripped the edge of the table to steady myself. âNo, this canât beââ I whispered.
Eliza snatched the note from my hand, her eyes widening as she read it. âDad, what truth? What have you hidden?â
The weight of five years of lies and guilt came crashing down on me. I sank into a chair, unable to meet Elizaâs eyes.
âYour mother,â I began, my voice cracking. âThe night she died⊠it wasnât just an accident.â
Elizaâs sharp intake of breath cut through the silence. âWhat do you mean?â
I forced myself to look at her and face the pain in her eyes. âWe had a fight that night. A big one. She found out Iâd been having an affair.â
âAn affair? You cheated on Mom?â
I nodded, shame burning in my chest. âIt was a mistake, dear. A terrible mistake. I tried to end it, but your mother found out before I could. She was so angry and hurt. She stormed out of the house, got in the carââ
âAnd never came back,â Eliza finished, her voice cold.
âI never told anyone,â I continued, the words pouring out now. âI couldnât bear for people to know the truth. To know that her death was my fault.â
Eliza was silent for a long moment, her eyes fixed on the roses. When she finally spoke, her voice was eerily calm.
âI knew, Dad!â
My head snapped up, disbelief engulfing me. âWhat do you mean, you knew?â
Elizaâs eyes met mine, and I saw years of pain and anger burning in them.
âIâve known for years, Dad. Mom told me everything before she left that night. I found her diary after she died. Iâve known all along.â
âYouâve known? All this time?â
She nodded, her jaw clenched. âI wanted you to admit it. I needed to hear you say it.â
Realization dawned on me, cold and horrifying. âThe roses and the note? It was you?â
âI followed you to the cemetery and took the flowers from Momâs grave. I wanted you to feel the betrayal and hurt she felt. I copied her handwriting and left this note with the flowers because I wanted you to know that you canât hide from the truth forever.â
âWhy now? After all these years?â
Elizaâs eyes flicked to the calendar on the wall.
âFive years, Dad. Five years of watching you play the grieving widower while I carried the weight of your secret. I couldnât do it anymore.â
âEliza, Iââ
âMom forgave you. She wrote that in her diary. But Iâm not sure I can,â Eliza cut me off, her words a dagger to my heart.
She turned and walked out of the kitchen, leaving me alone with the roses, the same roses that had once symbolized love, now an ominous reminder of the deceit that had torn our family apart.
I reached out and touched a soft white petal, realizing that some wounds never truly heal. They wait, hidden beneath the surface until the truth forces them into the light.